Timewarp

From one time to the next, I live for the chance to experience that higher love with the same man

I’m staying right here. There’s a part of you that’s with me. Sometime tomorrow or the day after, or a year after, you may remember and turn back to look for that part of you. When you do, I’ll be right here.

Of letting it be
My face feels the moments
Trying to hold on to your skin
The light
The arms that held me in
The heart that didn't want to let me go
Of everyday laughs
Of talking about the day
and cutting nails 
Or taking the little one to the barber shop
Or dancing in the first rain 
Of laburnums in bloom
Of kisses on the neck
Of late night confessions
and sheets of words that only makes it sweeter
Of 'have your reaxhed'
Of 'how could you have known I'm thinking of you'
Of wanting wanting wanting
And here I am 
Years down the line
imagining that this is day 1
Of letting it be

A piece of time is torn
for you and me to roam

You get lost
in my veins
in my words
in thoughts
that wander about
in dreams
in what ifs
in a memory
that doesn't know why
in a tear
in a shiver
in a moan
that tingles my skin
in milky skies
in mountain air
in a voice
that seeks me out

love without a home knows grief

I love 
and sometimes 
this love
is 
more than my body can hold
more than my memories justify
more than my mind can process 
more than my heart can pound
beat after beat
filling time
scattering through space
lost
without the only home it knows

because you see me beyond my story
because I feel you beyond yours

In waves of the sea

screaming in my glee

In my mother’s lullaby

as I huddle with a sigh

In breeze from the trees

Lifting hot air balloons

On my shopping spree

Buy something for yourself you say

Two steps behind ..you said you’ll be…always

You were there…and always will be

I hold my phone, the cursor pulsing.

My thoughts come in a stampede, each urgent, ferociously trying to get to you. To be seen, heard, felt, belonged. Of course they’re stupid. None of them make it. They’ve all left their words behind.

And then I type..
Hey

And then I fit myself inside a memory of you and close my eyes