Sloth

Often, when I was trying to be candor to myself, I’d confess that I am sexiest, that I want to be with a man who is masculine, strong, confident, successful and social!

Just now, out of nowhere*, I realized in fact I’ve been sexiest but not because I was looking for these qualities in my male partner but because deep down I still associated them with gender, the stereotype of male qualities!

These are the things I, myself, have always wanted to be so no wonder that I want him to be them too! Not because I expect a MAN to be like this just because I simply admire these qualities in general!

* Not really nowhere! I was listening to this podcast also watched “Blue Is the Warmest Color” last night!

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cubnByLm9yZy9yc3MvcG9kY2FzdC5waHA_aWQ9NTEwMzA4&episode=OGM0ODdkMTktMWI3NC00ZDA3LTk0NzQtYjFhMmRmNmE4NGVh

Mutual understanding is really important. In absence of understanding there will be frustration and sometimes anger. For this simple reason, I think we should:

First, try to put ourselves among those who can understand us; not those who agree with us nor those who are similar to us, but the ones who understand us. If we understand each other, then we can discuss about our disagreements and dissimilarity smoother and help each other grow faster.

Second, since it’s not possible to always hang out, work or even live with people with same common sense and logic, we need to learn to deal with it. Instead of running away, ignoring them or keep expecting them to understand us, try to understand them, their needs and their expectations; Not necessarily fulfill them, just understand them. This is the first step we need to take in order to be able to negotiate, to respect, to choose and to help them help us. Weather they are our coworker, our competitor, our employee, our supervisor, our parent, our child, our roommate, etc.

I’m sorry that I hurt you

It’s something I must live with everyday

The Reason, Hoobastank

Consistent or Stubborn?

Freewheeler or Harlot?

Nonjudgmental or Reckless?

Fearless or Foolish?

Rationalist or Negativist?

Independent or Apathetic?

…

Hey Shakespeare THESE are the questions.

” The question of whether jealousy is the fear of sharing or the fear of losing was
of little interest to me.”

‘Nymphomaniac: Vol II’

I used to cry really easily, easier then I like. But these days I can’t even if I want to, even if I try!

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قبلنا خیلی راحت گریم میگرفت. خیلی راحتتر از اون که دوست داشته باشم.

اما الان چند وقته گریم نمیاد حتی اگه بخوام، حتی اگه تلاش کنم!

طرف به عنوان استاد آداب معاشرت اومده بود، میگفت: “باید توی محیط اداری کفش رسمی پوشید، اینطوری که مثلن وقتی دارید به جلسه‌ای وارد میشید از صدای تق تق کفشتون بگن کارشناس فلان شرکت که داره میاداا…”
جلسه بعدش که داشت راجع به عطر و ادکلن حرف میزد گفت: “عطر رو رو خودتون خالی نکنید، نباید وقتی از اتاق خارج میشید همچنان بوی عطرتون تو اتاق مونده باشه، دیدین بعضیارو؟ دو ساعت بعد از اینکه از اتاق رفتن اگه بری اونجا میتونی بگی خانم فلانی اینجا بوده…”

مممم… وقتی آداب معاشرت حکم میکنه که پرسروصدا وارد شو ولی وقتی رفتی دیگه اثری از خودت به جا نذار فکر میکنم که هیچ دوست ندارم مبادی آداب باشی