Dec 1

Full of tears, doubts, regret but before the day ends, with happiness ✨ Hindi nakauwi because I thought may HLT the following day pero at least nalaman ko ng medj maaga so nainform ko si daddy na sasabay ako sa kanya. Therefore, makakauwi pa rin ako yehes! And.. Congratulation to my baby boys! #EXO

Dec 2

Destress? Haha. Trip ubusan today with fam! I should have chika (ang conyo!) with Twin Rein if only we weren’t at the cinema.

Dec 3

Mother is angeri. Bad joke kasi, lol. And yey, nakapagsimba rin. Can’t stop thinking about the coming of Christ but then I convince myself, katulad ng sabi sa homily ni father, at least maghanda na lang daw kasi we’ll never know. Preparing for someone’s arrival means that someone is impt to you. Eh si Jesus ‘yun so go lang! All for the Lord!

Dec 4

Last meeting sa Psych tapos omg, life planning ang pa-activity. I’m stressdt HAHAHAHA. Tapos andami kong nababasang deaths and I’m kinda scared pero naisip ko, why not live life to the fullest? What’s bound to happen will happen so might as well use the time to make everyday useful and extraordinary ✨ Oh, ‘yung #WPILSupotChallenge rin pala FTW HAHAHA

Dec 5

Dapat mageexam ako today sa Psych ng 1 pero ‘di natuloy kasi nakahiga lang ako tapos nagrereview palang for NS4. Huhuhu. I’m sorry, ma’am.
Pero nakakaloka kasi kung ano ‘yung ‘di ko masyado nabasa (which ‘yung handout nung fieldwork) doon marami lumabas HAHAHAHA plus nastress ako kasi ‘di ko matandaan ‘yung agents of metamorphism eh ‘yun din mali ko nung quiz HAHAHAHA. Ang hina ko talaga sa pagnename ng bato pero ayun, last day na ng NS4 and I had a great time. Sana lang talaga ipasa ako ni sir HAHAHAHA (Sinama ko rin sa message ko ‘yun sa exam lol)

MOST IMPORTANTLY… HANAP REGALO FOR NABUNOT YAY. Sana pala ‘di agad ako bumili kasi may iba pa akong nakita but anyway oks na rin kasi I like cute stuff charot. ‘Di ko sure kung tama bang nagregalo ako ng UNO cards under “board games” HAHA. Anyway, nakakatuwa talaga kapag namimili ka ng regalo o kaya nagbibigay ka. Kasi ‘yung mukha nila kapag nakakatanggap, ang priceless. Nakakatuwa sa feeling. Hehehe. Not expecting much pero sana okay ‘yung ibigay sa’kin tomors. ‘Wag na face towel please HAHAHHAA (kahit nalimutan lo i-specify nung nagcomment ako for wishlist hahahuhu)

11/17
Check up + filling + kuya cheeve + here come le future plans agen

11/18

did nothing haha char final int but parents iz zo galit bc 2 am gigising but still awake ng 11 (dinrin naman ako nakatulog agad loool)

11/19

FIELDWOOOORK!!! Practice > cheer > van 1 > chosen one > kadaldalan at its finest > had a great time with sir and others habang naghihintay sa tumirik na bus > brienne at falls > kyle 🙄 > kapagod mars > gutom na but i had to wait bc gamot > stresz mahsagot ng assessment HAHA > activities and zipline haha > high ropes omg i tot im dedt > magmudslide sana kaso too late + chika with ate laira(?), dan, ate hannah yay

11/20

Early realization: It’s been a year since I’ve been happy ng isang semester huhuhu plus nakakaloka, interdebate mars. Ang walang kwents ng sagot ko lol tapos ang lungkot talaga nung naiiwan hahahaha kainis kasi nagleave lang yung mga natanggap na admin,

11/22

Antok na antok ako so di ako nakaattend ng drug prevention seminar. Sayang hahaha. Ayoko na nga, kalimutan ko nalang. Wala na akong magagawa kasi tapos na huhuhays. Sana lang hindi pa ako matanggal sa OrgASM though.

Tapos nakakahiya kay ate Lynniel kasi sabi niya kung siya raw ‘yun, nakakainsulto raw ‘yung mukha ko habang nabili kami ng lugaw. Huhuhu. Eh ano magagawa ko, by default talaga huhu + no offense meant talaga ‘yun. Sad.

11/23

Di ako nakapasok PolSci saquette mars. Sa lahat talaga ng bagay, ang pinakaayaw ko ay ‘yung aabsent sa klase. ‘Di ko alam kung dapat ba akong magregret na ‘di na pumasok or tama lang kasi nakakahiya talaga kay sir. Huhuhu sayang kasi 10 points ko for group work 😦 Sayang 1.75. Huhuhu, Lord.
Naiiyak pa rin ako huhuhu. Pwede pala ipasa later this day yung paper omyghad. Tapos wala palang Psych, aattend lang ng conference. Sayang review huhuhu. Regrets and the chances and wasted efforts. Charot. HAHAHAHA. 

11/24

Ang lungkot huhu feeling ko legit na talaga na ang walang kwenta ko as a person. Geog.

11/25

YCT! Shookt c aq, head faci aq mars. Just when I tot I’m gonna experience le st feels

11/26

KART KART KART AND COCO (and semi-breakdown charot)

11/27

HBD ARNELLI AND AUNTIE SALLY! Sobrang kastress kasi ang mema ng sagot ko sa exam dahil sa hindi ko natapos basahin ‘yung readings kainez. Tapos akala ko talaga mataas ako sa Psych tapos grabe mars, 68 lang ako. Nakakaloka hahahaha. Tas ‘di pa ako nakareview ng ayos sa quiz. Stock knowledge is real and luckily, I passed. As in pasado lang. LOL

Plus, wala na talaga akong money bc ang gastos ko ngayon. 200 (nag-Happy Lemon kasi tas Pizza Hut, takaw haha) agad eh naka-600 ako kahapon. May babayaran pa akong 360. Kakain pa kami bukas sa Samgyupsal. Wala na talagang money. Kahiya kina mother tapos lakas pa ng loob ko mag-GDA? Hays. Anyway, next year self. I-push nating maging matipid hahaha.
And what a way to end the day. Videoke using bluetooth microphone! Yipee!
P.S. ‘Di nakapasok si Ms. Philippines sa Top 5 HUHU
11/28

Sabi ko hindi na ako male-late sa last meeting ko ng 102 and guess what, late pa rin ako. Huhuhu. Sobrang kumpyansa kasi na walang gagawin so late gumising tapos nagkataon na naligo si ate nung 9 ako nagising then… Nakakaloka. Pero at least nakaabot sa attendance (which is hindi ko nagawa last time nung nagreport ako, ugh!). Sayang ‘yung .25 for attendance orz
11/29

SO AYUN ANO G NA G AT THE SAME TIME SCARED KASI DI AKO NAGPATALO PARA LANG SA TV HAHAHAHA. ‘Yung MAMA kasi teh gurl, kaloka. Hahahaha

OMG BELGIAN EMBASSY VISIT NKKLK HAHAHAHA

11/30

Migraine pa bes haha rob with tita cyb and tita seen and haha unexpectedly yours. Ang gwapo pala ni joshua lol

10/01
October na!!!! What a good way to start the week with a mass hihihi. Though napagalitan pa ako kasi ang bagal ko hahahaha right after nyn, nagsm kami saglit bc bank na sobrang tagal. Like mars, gutom na c aq HAHAHAHA pero oks lang naman, happy tummy kasi lumamon na kami after (what??? hahahaha). Tagal naming paikot ikot (lalo na kami ni bes sizzums) kasi hinanap namin yung ice cream na nagstart sa letter S. Nung nagtanong tanong kami, ang sabi nila, “Ay yung bagong bukas? Dito ata yun *sabay turo*” pero magkakaiba naman sila ng pinopoint. Nakakaloka. Tapos ayun pala, malapit lang sa may Farron Cafe, near the stairs. Di namin siya napansin kasi akala namin parang pansinin yung sign ganun. Ayun pala, stall lang siya tapos scrapes ang pangalan, hindi Script. Bungol na hahahahaha. Pagtingin mamin, jusq haba ng pila. Almost an hour pa bago namin nakuha yung parang nilulutong ice cream tas pinapalamig ulit with toppings. Huhuhuhu lovelovelove ❤️ 

10/02

Maaga pumasok bc exam at need magreview pero mag-11:30 na lesson 6 mag-7 palang ako and omyghad ang dami niya bes im crying HUHUHUHU. Tapos pagdating ng exam, essay…. HAHAHAHA /cries in japanese/ Nakaiyak mars. Feeling ko tuloy wala akong kwentang mamayan ng Pilipinas kasi ni issue man lang na pwedeng pagapplyan ng differeny gov’t structures, ‘di ko knowings huhuhu such a disgrace to the up community. Char HAHAHAHAH. Buti nalang ‘yung sa psych 10 di nagpapasa hahahuhu cram pa more kasi self kaloka hehehe. After nun, dapat kasabay ko sina Coleng and Nuje pero si Jay kasi ayern nagpasama hahahahaha gumastos nanaman kami 😭 Di talaga kami pwede magkasama bc magastos siya + me as a hindi makatanggi person hahaha well atlis busog lololol. Tinapos lang namin yung movie sa 116 na halos isamg buwan na naming pinapanood HAHAHAHAH and to point one of the highlights of the day, first time ko tumambay sa tambayan ng orgASM omg hahahaha medyo awkwarf at first pero oks lang naman ang cute hehehe (+ may nakakalokang pasurvey pa yung orcomm na apparently yung isang pretty gurl dun jowaers pala ni emman hahahaha walang poreber haha juk) + (mumshie nyco’s pagiwan samin sa rob hahaha whut)

10/03

Sobrang agang gumising bc 102 exam. Mga 3 ganun pero woke up at 4 yehes. 15 pages na reviewer. Font 9/10. Sobrang daming terms, places, and people. 

10/04

Contemplate sa life na wow, no matter how dull or plain or boring the day may seem, it was actually extraordinary. A lot still happens. ✨

10/05 (5:31PM)

I haven’t done much today aside from my struggle of to buy or not to buy my new fave milk tea flavor, Winter Frost. I ended up buying Chuckie instead para naman sulit ang pera mga lodi! HAHAHAHA. I think I have to save para may additional money ako for the Bicol trip.
Ang funny kasi kanina muntik na akong malate dahil sobrang bagal ko maligo na inabot akong isang oras. Hahahaha. Feeling masipag din ako kanina since walang Psych kaya sinimulan ko nalang ‘yung para sa PS160 namin dahil iyaq na c aq next week. I feel bad din for Nyco kasi not sure kung nakapagquiz or rather nakapasok ba siya sa Econ 101 class niya (re: UPOST orye). Oh well, org matters.
So me, doing my stuff and shiz, enjoyed the feeling of having no companion at all. Habang nakatambay sa may hallway malapit sa library, I’ve been browsing stories from my newsfeed sa FB which I have done a lot recently. Nakita ko ‘yung post ni Pemski about Baguio and that my friends, is how it triggered my Baguio feels. HAHAHAHA CHAR
The post contains about the laid-back(?) life in Baguio and what piqued my attention is the quote which goes like this: Leave Manila before your heart gets hard and leave Baguio before your heart gets soft.
10/08

Fam time!! Kahit nung umaga-lunch time napagsabihan ako dahil sa kabagalan ko, it was so nice to bond with le uncles and Mommy 2 and Jodi! Bertday ni Uncle Mario so we went para makikain hahahaha. 

10/09

I’m so sleepy right now that I can’t even think well and write my reaction paper about the documentary I’ve watched. Kasabay ng exam sa NS4 ‘yung deadline mars kaloka. I wanna cry na, bimb. HAHAHAHAHA
After all the stress sa pagstestaplet ng mano-mano, yung disappointing na report kasi it would be better if hindi binasa lang (at mas oks yung policy cycle kung ako sana kasi nireport ko na yun before joke), yung madaliang evaluation ng results samantalang last nalang naman ako plus the average IQ(?!) like omg totally not UP material. Boo! HAHAHAHA though both high average on both set A and B (kahit na parin, mas lalong nakakababa ng self-confi bes.) Pero had fun earlier with le batchmates (funny nung sapilitang bonding lngoolol) sa tambayan.

10/11

Went to Vito Cruz today with ate Lynniel and ate Ria! Triny namin yung gokain and I was expecting na ramen kaso ayun, korean talaga. So I tried ramyeon tapos si ate yung jaja something, basta black noodles. Tapos kaloka kasi parang instant noodles lang naman siya na nilagyan ng itlog. Tas sabi ni ate pagdating namin ng dorm, hindi lang niya sinabi lasi nakakahiya. Well not for me kasi I speak for my mind. Hahahaha it just shows how unclassy I am? lololol. As I was saying, oks sana yung mga paside dish nila tapos may hinain samin na rice cake raw na may kimchi. Sabi ni ate free raw tas nakakuha na ako ng isa nung sabihin ni kuya na, “Ma’am order niyo po ba ‘to?” Tas nung humindi kami, binawi HAHAHAHA oh well. Pagkarating ni ate Ria, nag-Hungry Buster nalang kami at ang sarap ng chicken nila friend. Tapos sabi nila tumataba na raw ako at baka paggrad, sobrang fluffy ko na kesa sa kanila. I was like, “Pag ako po naging model. HAHAHAH” Kaso after ko sabihin yun nahiya ako kasi ang yabang ng dating tapos kung makasabi ako kala mo ang ganda ko eh HAHAHAHA, pero wag ka, di ko alam feeling dapat nung sinabi ninate na feeling niya maganda raw ako pag inayusan hahahaha (which I do not believe of course).
The fun thing for today ay may bago na kaming roommate pero from Riyadh. Ang sad kasi wala na akong pagtatambayan pero ang okay kasi easy to get along with naman siya. Tapos may binigay pa nga siyang chocolate para samin (shinare na rin namin kay ate Loida) and!!! Nagyaya siya na i-save raw namin ang 10/20 kasi birthday niya raw at gusto niya mag-Vikings. Sabi namin wala kami money bc dukha tapos shookt kami kasi sagot niya raw kami. Like o m g. Ang yaman! Hahahahuhu. Pero ang amazing lang kasi nakakatuwa pala yung feeling na hindi (lang kami yung nakakafeel nung closeness(?) di ko na alam karugtong nito HAHA)

10/12

Cram pa ng genogram sa Psych 10 kaya late for PS160 + Show and tell HAHAHAHAHA

10/13

So much for Friday the 13th.

10/14

It was from a trip from a serene place that we’ll realize na magulo, maingay, at sobrang fast-paced sa Manila.
Nakakarelax sa feeling yung sceneries and I also had the chance to see Mayon (though base lang kasi yung clouds)! Pati ‘yung Cagsawa Ruins dahil goals na yung sa picture na parang hinahawakaan yung ruins 💪🏻 #FeelingAccomplished. HAHAHAHA. Ang sarap din ng local food nila. Lalo na ‘yung authentic bicol express, dinuguan and if course, SILI ICE CREAAAAM! (Level 1 lang yung akin though) 

Tapos nag-zipline pa ako which is so good pero nakakahiya kasi sigaw ako ng sigaw kainis hahahaha it’s been a long time kasi since last na zipline ko. Ang ganda talaga ng view!! Pictorial eme pa tas kinabahan ako kasi may dugo sa ice candy ko like I’m not sure kung akin ba ‘yun or what if may HIV pala yun ._. #scary.
Tapos pumunta rin kami sa parang Roxas blvd. ng Legazpi. Anddd! Tinry namin yung BIGG’s with Van 5! Ang cute lang kasi kahit paano or kahit ngayong araw lang eh nagbonding kami. We ate on the same table ganern.
Pagkauwi naman, sobrang funny kasi nagtakutan lang kami ni ate Marianne tapos tawang tawa akonkay Dettie Mae kasi ‘di raw siya lasing pero HAHAHAHAHQ omg, i love seeing mah friends drunk hehe

10/15

Uwian na huhuhu

10/16

Sleep iz lyf (strike so pahinga galore lol)

10/17

No class again iz real + Happy birthday dettie!!

10/18

Gusto ko mag-Diliman 😦
10/19

Goodmorning with selinaenae!!! Crammed le psych paper + happy birthday ate gigi and huwow naman daw sa t-ice(?)

10/20

uh-oh, mam boncs and mam paneds are disappointed (re: fieldtrip + struggles sa exam)

10/21

Happy birthday bebe joy!!!

10/22

Oh how I love Lord of the Rings :’) LEGOLAAAAAAS ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

10/23

Migraine nanaman. Plus yung report kanina, kahiya mars. Bakit ba ako nasa UP? Ahahahuhy /cries in japanese/

10/29

Ilang exams at quizzes na ang lumipas noong nakaraang linggo. Nung Thursday, ang happy kasi kahit konti lang kami, nakapagworship ako. Namiss ko ‘to mars! Buti nalang Bakbakan opening that day. Tapos pala nung Wednesday, nagrenew kami ng passport and I can say na ang jeje ko talaga as a person. Kitang kita sa mukha hahahaha. Anyway, iniisip ko talaga kung may pa-surprise trip sina mader kaya ganto pero ‘di na ako aasa. Less expectation, less disappointment, less pain. Pak. (Anon, 2017) HAHAHAHA
And then nung Friday, omg. THP event for Cancer Institute patients! Huhuhu. Ang puso ko. Doon ko lang narealiza na kahit mahilig ako sa bata, mas magaling parin akong awayin at paiyakin sila kaysa patawanin sila HAHAHAHAHUHU JK. Tapos nakita ko po si ma’am IQ tas ‘di ko knowings kung mag-hi ba akonor kilala niya ba ako or something haha

(the continuation begins here)

09/03

Parents’ anniv @ SMD + Nico iz zo gwapo HAHA + milk tea and sinigang is not a good combination #yakimixfeels
09/04

Monday again haha had dinner with jay, ian and nyco
09/05

heart to heart talk (wow) with ate geri; very shookt from suprize quiz in ns4; recit sa 102 is ztressful and funny lol
09/06

MO!!! pagod ang ate mo fren; kuya runner and the cupcake is awkward haha; left the forum earlier l0l; was a great time except sa i didnt have the chance to attend the rcy orye #sad
09/07

Forgot le wallet and 116 report is…. :—( 
09/08

Nakakaqiqil talaga yung mga “weakling” na bidang mga babae kaloka pare-pareho kaming nakakaloka hay. Hahahaha charot
09/09

Sopya @ 18!!! (hs with chismis lol)
09/10

Phone call with Auntie Sally and law school lyf(?)
09/11

spent my three and a half freaking hours doing all sorts in the hallway and it was so hot and the boredom iz killing meh but i had a great time since i had a talk with ate rachel and ate geri and kuya g and other ppl
09/12

classes were suspended and i may say that it was just right. sobrang lakas ng ulan mars pati yung hangin im shookt (rob gala feels with ate cath and ate ria)
09/13

MIBF feels with ate pickles ✨
09/14

hbd kuya g!
Stress and time mgmt on psych 10 class!! ❤️
tambay sa lobby bc lakbayan box; met new friend; doughnut from kuya g yey
meeting with legal and acads ni aldrin and medyo stressful bc #nonsenseme hehehuhu
Sobrang hyper tas biglang sad and fears
09/15

102 = ftrip = exempted

Brienne group lol but photoshoot today and parents are so so mad 😦
09/16

Too bad i cant go to pangy

printed le expensive stickers for mhiamb boo

Nagpuyat for K2 HAHAHA
09/17

MIBF is lit 💪🏻 (met le MHIAMB ops/sweets which I shouldn’t lol)
09/18

walang class ng psych 10 pero pagod na c aq; natulog nalang me despite the reqs for the next day lololol + had a small talk with sis (miss ko na sila huhu)
09/19

Stressdt na me mars cram iz real; sayang yung pagcrcram ko ns4 exercise, di naman chineckan sana gumawa na ko paper hahahuhu
tinamad ako for yfc at nakakahiya but nevertheless it was still worth it as always!!!
walang masakyan so I had to walk amd praise God, I got home safely ❤️
09/20

I did nothing?????
09/21

Sobrang sad kasi 1, hindi ako nakaattend dun sa bonus points; 2, di ako nakasama sa rally pero oks na yung kesa sa magsisi ako and i believe that mother knows best; 3, imbes na magaral nakatulog lang ako im so stressdt; 4, i tried reviewing sa may mini study place sa dorm ang cool niya, it’s not that creepy and it’s comfy pa nga (yuck conyo) pero malamok nung pagabi na lol; 5, chikahan with twinrein at ang daldal namin jusq. Medj pressured ako kahit joke joke lang yung deal namin na lilibre niya ako kapag mataas grade ko like hello 98/99% ang hirap kaya mars mam paneda pa yun hahaha atleast challenged ako to do better yehes
09/22

Friday the 22nd :—( lol
09/23

paqod na c aq
09/24

Infairness ha, yung shifring ng mood real quick overnight lang hahaha from gigil to lungkot haha
09/25

yung feeling na fren not found kanina lalo na sa photobooth lyk anuna + kaloka the tests in psych but atleast nagset up kami for yfc booth + na i tot i will sleep alone kasi kaloka the roommates tagal magsibalik ahuhy
09/26

sbarro with 102 fam + film showing ng as lololol and the goodbye and goodluck chika with ate kim the roommate
09/27

No class sana pero kasi forum ng as (result sa 131; cries haha) + practice na sana makikichika lang ako ng flow tapos biglang mars!!! sasayaw ako?! Ako?!?! HAHAHAHAHHUHUHU KENAT
+ nice talk with le elem bff about the greatness of the Lord. Note to self: my FAITH is GREATER than my FEARS.
09/28

Sana umabsent nalang me sa test something kasi sayang yung pop culture quiz bee ng as!! HUHUHU. Char. Tapos kaloka practice hanggang 9:30 tapos wala akong kasabay kasi kumain sila sa kfc tas akala ko si madam kaso di na tumuloy kasi fam niya unalis na ng pgh hahaha ito yung mga instances sa life na sana cosmo nalang ulit ako lol
09/29

Umalis na si ate kim the roommate ahuhuhu

I tot may pa-dinner tas wala pala pero atlis nag-tim keme kami sa may univ square ni ate hannah kasi dami tao sa subway; sayang pamusic vid mars!! lol
Feeling ko ang haba ng araw kasi kahit 9 na ako dumating bc practice and other props shiz, may pa practice pa sa parking lot nila kuya gian, yung sa scihall tapos kainis kasi nagkamali pa ako sa ibanag part lalo na sa mismong sayaw pa na mars anuna, feeling practice lang??? hays hahahaha tapos asian museum theme ng seniors (i really loved the twice part tas ang oa ko dun sa goblin shiz kainiz lol) pero ang fun parin hahahaha talo man pero im so stressdt!! SOBRANG FUNNY NG KEMBUTAN CHALLENGE AHAHAHHA DI KO KINAYA
+ i hate moments like this kung saan sana wala akong class ng 4 huhu nalate na nga ako (oks lang kasi kakarating lang daw) tas nakasira pa ako ng sample ahuhu mukha na kasi naman siyang masisiri so ayun hehe
09/30

Tulog iz ril hahahaha tapos first time ko magpadala sa palawan express amazing! HAHAHAH. Kasi naya needs it kasi nga asa cebu siya then ang paalam niya ay sa tagaytay lang. Urgent na pinabalik siya at syenpre mars, alangan namang pabayaan ko siya diba kaya i did all i can para makauwi siya huhuhu syimpri i care kasi fren konsiya for almost my entire existence dito sa earth + ayoko pagalitan siya + ayoko maudlot labstori nila ahahehehe so ayun tas omG ANG GWAPO NI LEGOLAS???!?! Though matanda na siya :—( #TheHobbit