The work isn’t us, or even ours

Nothing we create really starts with us. What shows up was already there, waiting for a way through. An idea doesn’t arrive unless it already wants to exist. The trouble begins when we claim it. When it’s received well, we take it personally. When it isn’t, we take that personally too. Both invite a lot…

McCartney

This part is not about McCartney, but Lennon. That picture of him in the early days, wearing that leather cap. Has a name, I’m sure. I don’t know it. It’s cool. Looked cool. He looked cool, wearing that cap. I wanted one. I was in elementary school. I asked for it, a birthday gift or…

Hello. I love you

There was some part of me wanted you. I suggested you move in, to that apartment complex I was living in. And there was some part of you wanted me, because you did it. I was in the pool that day. My gtl day, gym tan laundry, acronym stolen from The Jersey Shore. This was…

the great pneumatic tube in the cloud

Wrote you a message, I’ll have you know. And I know you know because I used the account that returns excellent read receipts. You opened it seconds after I sent it. My phone buzzed and the little eyeball icon lit up green, saying Oh hell yeah, read, big time. I didn’t expect that, but I’m…

Hercules Visits the Race Track

It was a bright blue day at Santa Rosita Downs. Flags flapping. Air crisp and chill. The smell of beer and horses, broken dreams and desperation. I kept to myself, as was my wont, sipping absinthe from a flask, nose deep in the racing form. Stable Genius looked primed for a comeback in the final…

Shooting Trump

It was most certainly a remember where you where when moment. I was a fifth grader walking back to class from the bathroom when I overheard a teacher in the hallway saying President Reagan had been shot. I had no idea what to make of that information. But I remember that teacher standing in the…

Sadness is on me

It’s back. The need to write. Unfortunately, I don’t have anything to say. Sadness is on me. I read recently that that’s how they say “I’m sad” in Irish. That’s a good way to say it. Reminds you that sadness is not you, nor you it. What’s the difference between “I am sad” and “I…

Not done

This might be goodbye. If you ask me right now, this is goodbye. Right now, I’m done. How many more times will you reach out and disappear. How many more times will you suggest ideas, plans, locations, and vanish in smoke. How many more times will you ask my number, forget to save it, call…