So what a wonderful day. I come home from work to find out that my cousin is getting married on Thursday; I didn’t know about it. The last I heard they were talking about the third, but I didn’t know anything past that. I was hurt, my kids are hurt, I called her up and chewed her out. Its one thing to hurt me, but when you hurt my kids that’s another thing all together. I don’t want my kids to feel like I did as a kid, and they have. I’m big on don’t say anything to kids if you don’t know if you can do it or not. That way they don’t get hurt. But things just escalated into a huge mess. I yelled at her, my Uncle called and yelled at us, and said that she is only 19, yes she is. But my kids are only 9, and 10 they think this is their fault, I know what it does I didn’t want them to ever feel this way. I talked with her about this before so this isn’t the first time this has been done. So now I sit here crying my eyes out, not ever able to talk. I have never been this angry in my life! I try hard to deal with my negative size, my I won’t forget this, side. I feel like this has been turned around on to us, and that we are being blamed for this. I am willing to accept my responsibilities, my own faults and my own problems. But this is something that I got blamed for and no responsibilities are taken on anyone else’s part. Now let me say this, no I should not have yelled at her, but when it comes to my kids I am very protective. I also understand that my Uncle is protecting his kid, I can respect that as well. But when I am expected to take all the responsibility on this, yeah it hurts, and when I get hurt, I get angry. My own problem, but that again is my own responsibility.
I was told that we were invited to a dinner after the wedding on Thursday, and that we need to put this behind us, and act like a family should. Yes I agree, at the same time I am hurt and have such a hard time with knowing what I can handle.
I have to say this is exactly what a person needs who has been battling the downward spiral of depression. I have been fighting not to feel so alone, but this REALLY helped today let me tell ya. Now I get to try to find some energy to take a shower, attempt to sleep and go to work in the morning.
Heres hoping everyone has had a better day than we did.
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