Rare Sighting (Apr. 3, 2023)

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(Copyright, Vincent J. Marquis, 2023)

It was a very fine early spring day. The sun was bright and cheerful, even if the temperature barely broke a sweat on the crusty snow-pack and made no impression on the icy patches on the walking trail. I needed the sunglasses I had thought of grabbing from the car at the last second as I began my walk. I had also thought of my walking stick, and it would prove useful on a few icy stretches.

The path runs north-south between Clayton Road and Wolf Grove Road, and is three kilometers one way. It is just a mostly unopened road allowance, and is only fully navigable on foot or by snowmobile in winter. The rest of the year muddy and marshy low points make it impassable.

For those who take the time and make the effort to walk it, it is worth every bit of the effort. The interior is remote from houses and people, unless you meet sleds in winter. Rarely do you meet another hiker. This day, I have it all to myself and it invigorates me and excites me.

When you set off to visit a natural place few bother to take in, you never know what you may encounter, no matter how many times you have been there before. I have learned this over the years in my communion with creation. It is always a refreshment and a blessing, even if I see and hear only what I have seen and heard many times before. I never tire of the beauty and rich wonder of what lays just beyond my doorstep. It’s almost as if Creator prepared this specially for me. I know better than to really believe that, but it feels that way. And in a sense, I believe it’s true. After all, doesn’t Creator already know who will travel and sojourn, and when they will do so, in every part of what (s)he has made?

First, I always look at my steady, constant companions, the trees. I observe and listen to the little beings that may be around—birds and four-footed, mostly. They give me joy just by being there. Creator loves them too; how dare I not welcome them and wish them well? Close to the two book-end roads that bracket this stretch of trail, there are some farm fields maintained for haying, but other than that, the rest of the journey is enclosed by woods and marshy stretches in the low areas.

The woods are rich and mostly of a variety of hardwoods, the majority being different sub-species of maple of which sugar maple is predominant. But there are oaks, ash, elm, poplars, ironwood, black cherry, and even some hemlock. Evergreens are scattered as well – spruce, fir, balsam, and white pine. All are found in appropriate stands that presage mini-microclimates.

The three marshy areas all have a feeder stream that meanders through them and sends out rivulets across the lowlands to stimulate the marsh grasses, cattails, and various hardy shrubs and flowers that thrive there. These areas harbour their own special fauna as well. Walking this oasis of natural plenty is renewing and awakens my soul to come out of its personal space of worry and concern about the human condition. The cosmos is so much greater and more wonderful than my small experience, whether that be joyful or sorrowful, and the peace is renewing and awakens my soul to come out of its personal space of worry and concern about the particular moment.

This day I have a little mission for my walk: to make it across end to end and back one more time before the thaw closes the way until late next autumn or early winter. After all, there may be very few more days between then and now when it is still possible. And at my age, you never know if you will be able to do it again. I am hoping that today is still one of those days. If I chance to cross paths with something unusual, so much the better.

The first kilometer done brings me to the first marshy area. I already know there is an active beaver lodge here, perhaps thirty or forty meters west of the path. As I near the break in the trees I turn my eyes right to see if I can catch a glimpse of the parent beavers and their kits. My spouse has told me they have come out at last, and she saw three beavers in the stream two days before.

But my eyes see no beaver. Rather, sitting atop the lodge is a curious lump of a thing, and I stop to peer at it. I make out a rounded shape with a rather fluffy, tawny frontal appearance and an almost pointed top. It suddenly strikes me. It is a very large hawk! The sneaky, wily raptor must be waiting for the family to come out so he can snatch a kit by surprise. I move slowly ahead. The big bird decides his cover is blown and, jumping into the air as raptors do at take-off, like the harrier-jet which is named for just this characteristic behaviour, he indignantly wheels away letting me see his fine plumage and splendid wing-span as he moves shop to a shore-line tree limb. He is a fine big fellow – and his coloration tells me it is a red-tail.

Well-pleased at such a good augury for this day’s hike, I set out again in very good humour, feeling as if Creator has just kissed me on the cheek and said, “There is better yet to come! Keep going and keep your eyes open!” I don’t begrudge the hawk his right to eat, but I can’t help being pleased the little beaver is safe for the moment.

My walk is indeed very pleasant, but nothing else unusual seems on the itinerary as I wend my way back after reaching the Union Hall Terminus, just the north side of Wolf Grove. At the highest point on the walk I pause to sit in stillness and appreciation of where I am, alone in the midst of many acres and perhaps square kilometers of some very fine country. Realizing I should be making my way home to take a hand in preparing supper and helping with things, I move on, crossing the third and largest marsh, winding my way up again and across the “hunt-camp” ridge, as we call it after the old, now unused hunting lodge that stands well off to the west of the road. From the closed entrance to the lodge, the trail twists down to the middle marsh.

I begin to cross it, and then, as I approach the northern edge, something very large glides across my field of vision to the east. I stop dead to gaze after it in wonder. I take in the amazing grace of enormous wings sweeping the air, and know at once by its flight movement it is not a vulture or a heron or a crane, but a very large raptor. Its sweeping movement is utterly silent, but it is moving away from me and I cannot make out what species it may be—although “eagle!” jumps to mind just from its size.

Then this creature of sheer majesty graces me and wheels to its right, allowing me to see it vividly, clearly, beautifully, in its form and colour and magnificence. It cannot be anything but a very large eagle, but not your “regular” old bald-headed variety which I have seen many times, although I love seeing them whenever they can be seen. I am stunned! I have seen one of these, possibly, once before, twenty years ago, but that was very briefly as it flew over and away. But now, this time, there is no mistaking—a golden eagle! It is splendid as it keeps turning as if to let me fully see it, and I can see the head in crystal clarity, the sharply hooked beak, the “eagle-eye” looking at me. Its golden-edged feathers are in clear sight. It finishes its inspection and moves off towards the trees to the north. I think I have had the second blessing I felt was hinted at well over an hour ago now, and I turn to continue on the path.

Except, when I do, there is a second eagle coming into full view from the other side of the marsh, like a twin to the first, but undoubtedly another one, for the plumage is just slightly different, and its point of arrival was much too far from the one that just left – but no, he hasn’t left. He comes back, and for a long, suspended, slow-motion interim there are two eagles turning, two golden eagles circling that marsh and me in it! I am privileged, indeed blessed, to be standing just here at this propitious moment! If I were a Roman consul seeking an augury, I would believe Jupiter had sounded in trumpet of approval on all my endeavours!

I am frozen, spell-bound. I am sure I am seeing an engaged or married couple checking in with each other in their search for a suitable place to set down together. Eagles mate for life, and I have almost no doubt that this is a male and female mated pair. I am thunderstruck, realizing I have seen something that very few people have ever seen or will ever see, and which I will probably never see again. For golden eagles are a rarity in Ontario, a protected species, even if they are widespread in other parts of North America and even northern Europe.

I finish my walk, filled with wonder and eager to share what I have been blessed to see with those I live with and love. This has indeed been a special day! 

DEATH THREAT – Autumn 1980

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(This is a true story.)

Andy sat across from me, between me and the door.  A Doberman Pincer sat on his haunches to his left.  Behind the dog was the door to the hallway, which led out to the front porch.

My naïve zeal had gotten me into this, but now it was all clear to me.  I would be lucky to leave this place alive.  He had a wicked smirk on his face as he said, “You know I talked to my priest and he told me you were a heretic and I should quit talking to you and have nothing more to do with you.”

The electricity of danger was live in the air.  My skin prickled and every sense was heightened.  I needed to be careful about every word I said and even the expression on my face.  I should have known better and read the signs earlier that this “relationship”, if such it could even be called, was a mere ploy for this “con” – a world which described both his actual status in society and his criminal personality – to use me until he could safely drop me or perhaps even get rid of me in a more literal way.

Now he was a man on the run, having skipped his parole, and supposedly hiding across the Quebec border in a girl-friend’s apartment.  I’d fallen for his line that he desperately needed help just to get over a bad spot and if he could just stay free for a couple more weeks he’d turn himself back in to the authorities and appeal to keep his parole.

Talking on the phone with him at home before I’d left the house, I had made it clear to him that this was the last time I could do anything for him.  I would bring him food, which he claimed he’d run out of, but would have no money on me.

When I’d arrived, I’d taken the food to the fridge in the kitchen, and discovered that there was plenty of food in the fridge.  “Why did you tell me you needed food?” I asked. 

He readily replied, “Oh, that’s Sylvie’s food and I can’t eat it.  I’m supposed to supply my own, but I can’t leave the apartment, you know.”

“No, I guess not if you’re on the lam,” said I.

“So I thought of you, and how you’ve always said you were ready to help me out if I needed anything,” he added.

“So I did,” I admitted, realizing how deep a hole I’d now dug myself into.

“But I also said that I’d help you if you really wanted to go straight and abide by your parole, and not if you decided to skip out on it.”

“Yeah, but I know you Christians are softies because you feel guilty if you don’t help the poor lost souls in prison, like me.  Isn’t that how you see me – like a project rather than a friend or a person who just wants to live his own way?  Let’s sit down for a few minutes to talk,” he said, gesturing to the love-seat and then taking the arm-chair opposite.  “I’ve got some things I wanna say to you before you leave.”

“I think I should just leave now,” I said.  “My wife will start to worry about me.”

“Oh come on, you’ve only been gone half-an-hour or so, right?  Sit down!”

This last was not a request.  I reluctantly moved to the love-seat.

He told the dog, who had been quiet the whole time but never left his side, to sit down beside him.  And so we found ourselves as described in the opening of this episode.

“You know, this dog is very obedient.  He does everything I say.  He’s really smart.  So if you make a sudden move he doesn’t like, or I don’t like, I could tell him to stop you and he would.”

“Are you threatening me, Andy?”

“Don’t take it that way,” he smirked.  “Just protecting you from the dog,”

I began to look at him very steadily, straight in the eyes.  I had been threatened in my life enough times by bullies to know that demonstrating fear stimulated them, gave them the rush they sought.  I must show no fear.

“So what did you want to tell me before I leave?”

He chuckled.  “You know, you religious types are all so predictable, so naïve.  You come to see the poor dumb cons in jail and think you’re gonna save them all from the devil and hell by prattling on about Jesus and repentance and living like you.  What you don’t understand is that a lot of us, guys like me, like to do the things we do.  It’s exciting!  It’s a rush to do a job and pull something off and get away with it.  To give the man the finger, yeah, even to give God the finger.  But there in jail, you know, it’s all a game.  We play you types like a fiddler plays the fiddle.  Press the right buttons, say the right things and string you along.  And when you leave, we get together and laugh at how stupid you are.”

I continued to stare at him.  “Anything else you want to get off your chest?”

This is where he spun his line about his priest.  I knew it was complete bull-shit, that he was as likely to have talked to a priest as he was to have phoned the Pope.  But I just dead-panned, “Well, I’m not going to contradict your priest.  You should do what he says and we should have nothing more to do with each other.  Are we done?”

A hard-glint and tightening of his jaw, while his left hand brushed the dog’s collar, warning me I could be well breathing my last few breaths.  He had already committed violent crimes and had been sentenced to fifteen years for almost killing a man, as well as armed robbery.  He was over six-feet and two hundred pounds in comparison to my slight frame.  And he had a deadly dog at his command.

He stared back at me, a smoldering fuse on the edge of doing what he clearly wanted to do.  His voice was deadly quiet as he said, “You know, I could just kill you right now.  I could order this dog to rip out your throat and not lay a finger on you myself.”

I’m sure he expected panic and fearful pleading from me, which he would then play to a crescendo before he made up his mind to do the actual deed.  Instead, I uttered a silent prayer to Jesus to show me the way out.  Complete calm came over me, and I said with total quiet conviction, “You could, and I couldn’t stop you or the dog….  But you won’t.”

He just looked back at me with frank astonishment – the last kind of answer he expected.  “And why won’t I?”

I looked at my watch and then straight into his eyes, calm and brave.  “Because my wife knows exactly where I am and when I said I would be home, and if I’m not home in twenty minutes, the cops will be here.  I told her to call them and if I don’t leave now you’ve got maybe half an hour of freedom left.”

He looked back at me with an expression I could not read.  I looked back at him and got up from my seat, saying, “So I’m leaving now and you and your dog are not going to stop me.” 

I went out the door, with him now following me and adopting a much more conciliatory tone.  “Hey man, you know I was only kidding, right?”

I glanced back at him over my shoulder and shot, “No you weren’t, so let’s just cut the bull-shit.  Good-bye Andy.”

An Unorthodox Way to Make a Friend

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(copyright) Vincent J. Marquis

In my Grade Seven Year, two new boys appeared at Our Lady’s school – Ronnie and Roy, two tough French kids who lived just down the block from me on Elm Street.  Ronnie and Roy thought they needed to establish themselves by having a few victorious tangles with recognized residents of some stature in the pecking order.

Somehow or other, I was one of those.  I guess it was because I was known to be a pretty ferocious little scrapper once I got mad, and I had had a few successful encounters.  Brother Frank had taken some boxing lessons at the Boys’ club and showed me a few stances and protective moves and punches.  If you knew a bit, it could go a good way with someone who knew nothing.

In the second week of school that year, Ronnie and Roy decided to take on me and my half-Chinese, half-Algonquin Indian (not then a politically incorrect term) friend, Dan.  One day they followed us when school got out, taunting us and daring us to fight two-on-two.  We said we had no interest in fighting them; we didn’t know them and had nothing against them.  A little group of interested onlookers gathered to see what would happen. 

Dan finally consented to fight Roy, and Ronnie was incensed when I still refused to fight him.  He was smaller than I, a rarity, so I felt I couldn’t do it.  Besides, in Grade Seven I was trying to be serious about my Catholic faith and remembered that Jesus said to turn the other cheek.  I decided I would try that in this case. 

Don and Roy fought and wrestled for about fifteen minutes right on the sidewalk on Lebreton Street near Somerset and called it a draw.  The whole time Ronnie told me I was a coward, a ‘chicken-shit’, and pushed me from time to time, waving his fist near my nose.  I just stood my ground but didn’t raise ‘my dukes’.  He finally even slapped me in the face, but I just stood there looking at him. 

I was not afraid, and that was plain.  I told him that he didn’t scare me but I had no interest in fighting him and we had no reason to quarrel.  I preferred to be friends.  He couldn’t understand.  Roy told him to lay off; it was over and he wanted to go home.  Ronnie felt he needed to get in one more insult so he threatened that the next time he saw me he would punch my face in.  I told him that if he tried that he would have to really fight me and that wouldn’t go well for him.  I told him that the only reason I hadn’t fought him was that Jesus said to turn the other cheek, and that was what I was doing.  He scoffed and gave me a little kick in the rear and walked off with his brother.

Our little group of spectators stood there astonished.  One of the guys who knew me said, “Vince!  Why did you let that punk get away with that?  You could beat him with one hand tied behind your back!”  I repeated about turning the other cheek.  He said, “I could never do that.”

After that, Roy and Ronnie seemed to avoid me whenever we saw one another in the street.  I avoided them too, passing on the other side.  I was worried they would both gang up on me.  Don, my Algonquin-Chinese buddy, said Roy had apologized to him and they had agreed to be friends.

 One Saturday, I encountered Ronnie on Elm Street alone.  He walked up to me bold as anything, smiled and offered to shake my hand.  He said, “I want to say I’m sorry for what happened a while ago.  I shouldn’t have done that.  I appreciate what you did in refusing to fight me.  Some people told me that it was a really dumb idea and that I got off pretty lucky.  So I’d like to be friends, if that’s OK.” 

I was pretty shocked, but relieved.  I shook his hand and said, “OK, sure, Ronnie.  Let’s be friends.  No hard feelings, OK?”

“Good!” he answered.  “And if you ever need someone to back you up, don’t hesitate to ask, OK?”

“OK, thanks,” I said.

Ronnie and Roy were around in the neighbourhood for about two years, and we remained on friendly terms.

Woulda, Coulda, Shoulda

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Our present personal, local, national, and global situation has turned many of us to some serious reflection and introspection.  As we engage, we may well find ourselves thinking of things that might have been different.

I tend to forget that most people who see and know me now would place me in the “Senior” category.  Some old people approaching their life’s end say they have no regrets.  I can intellectually understand the idea of living without regrets, but I can’t put myself in that position.

If someone tells me they have no regrets, I won’t want to call them a liar, but I may well be thinking it.  Or, in a kinder frame of mind, I may just think they have learned to self-induce selective amnesia.  Even more charitably, perhaps at the moment we are chatting, nothing of the sort comes to mind (“senior” moment, eh).  Maybe there really is so little of that nature that they have to remember that they truly have lived with great integrity and virtue.

Living with no regrets seems like a highly desirable goal and state of mind.  Oh to have nothing weighing on the conscience, or lurking in the subconscious to reproach myself about how I mistreated someone, or failed to do something that would have made a real difference for someone else or myself!  Oh to really forgive myself for some of my really stupid and just straight-out bad decisions and actions!  I even work at this with some success, but it remains a work in progress.

We all reach forks in the road of life which come in the shape of opportunities and choices of all kinds, shapes, and sizes, for good and ill.  Having to choose one route over another or even several others, it is only human to wonder from time to time about what would have happened if I had taken that other path.

There are certainly some choices and paths which leave little or nothing to regret.  For me, one of those was finding my life-partner.  I realize that for many other people, their choice turned out far less happily.  I doubt that few, even those with happy relationships, can say that their mind has never wandered back to other potential people whom they could have been with.  I cannot conceive that the half of the adult population (divorce and break-up rate stats put this at about 50%) whose choices produced broken hearts and wounded lives (of more than just the two people directly concerned) come out of a ship-wrecked primary relationship having no regrets about that.

Even in a happy relationship, there will be reasons and seasons for regret.  I have certainly not been a perfect mate or friend to my spouse, and there are moments and things I wish I could undo or redo.  But we have been strong, caring, and committed enough to make it through our hills and valleys still good friends and more.  Anyone who has worked this kind of thing through discovers that there is a very different and stronger kind of love than the boiling hot mix of eros and idealism (or maybe it was just eros) one starts out with. 

Pick any important aspect of your life.  Your childhood choices were all perfect?  Your behaviour towards your parents, siblings, and friends and even acquaintances was (and remains) invariably wonderful and caused no trauma or wounds to anyone’s heart and development?  Perhaps that is true for some rare angelic creature, but most of us have betrayed or forsaken a friend, lied abominably, done a few dark things we will never speak about, and deeply hurt someone knowing full well that we were doing it and that we did not have to do it.

As adults, how many decisions were there that we can now see (and even back then could reasonably have known) were really foolish and counter-productive for ourselves and, almost without fail, for others who were relying on us?  Some of these would be minor, but we know full well that some of them have had life-long results that have been (and maybe still are) difficult to live with and even caused great distress to ourselves and others.

But why dwell on such things?  It really doesn’t do much good to go back and live there again.  In fact, living in the past is another one of those bad moves we are talking about.  But that is not the point.  To resolve things that still hold us prisoner, there needs to be confession and absolution, at least as far as that still remains possible.  As difficult as it may be, I may need to seek someone out and try to set things right.  Of course, there needs to be discretion as to whether this could really help resolve an issue.  By all means refrain if it would only worsen it.

Most of this is common wisdom, but for too many of us it is too little practiced.  As you we grow older, do we truly grow wiser. “You will know them by their fruit,” a great and wise Man once said of how to judge people long-term. The opportunity for resolution of some of these old scars needs to taken sooner rather than later, perhaps moreso for we “old-folks” but youth is no guarantee of having another opportunity if you pass an obvious one up because of pride or shame.

I hear a protest out there: Does is really help to go back and question why I decided to do X rather than Y?  Why did I decide to refuse that golden opportunity?  Why did I take this job rather than that one?  What were my motivations?  There can be insight and helpful self-understanding if introspection is not pursued morbidly for self-condemnation as a bad person and a failure. But if, in a particular instance, I did act as a bad or wicked person, I need to own it and confess it – to God or whatever serves as His replacement for you, if that is all that is left that can be done.  For many, it helps to confess to a trusted friend, with or without God.

As a writer, I find that some of these reflective insights are quite helpful in developing character traits in the characters who inhabit my stories.  They also make me look at what may well have been going on in the hearts and minds of the others involved in my life-story.  They can make me more sympathetic and understanding of the frailties and flaws others fight against, or more admiring of their strengths and wisdom.

I may not be able to escape regrets.  But I can forgive myself and others for wrongs and failures.  I can seek forgiveness for what I have done or left undone, said or left unsaid.  Sometimes, I may even still be able to say things and do things to heal the old wound and resolve the regret. 

A caution – an email or text is really not the best way to deal with regrets.  Voice to voice, with faces attached if possible, is still the best.  Physical distancing may require leaving a hug till later. You must be the judge of the when and how, but there is One who will give guidance if asked.

As a parting thought: don’t create another regret that you didn’t use this “now” to deal with some of the old baggage that has been living in the basement of your soul for a long, or even a short, time.  None of us has a guarantee that we’ll have a better opportunity than the one we have right now.

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Fragile Bloom

(Copyright – Vincent Marquis, 2022)

Freedom, such a delicate bloom

so seldom seen in the gloom

of History’s long, tumultuous saga;

she raises her fragile head to the sun,

almost always in the midst of a storm,

like a flickering light calling her forlorn

longing seekers to follow her down

a slender, winding trail towards a meadow of life

filled with delight for those who find their way

full of bright promises for a better day.

Freedom! the cry of hope for those who see their lot

as forgotten, downtrodden, oppressed and suppressed,

the cry for justice, to set things right

things denied and deprived

by cruel and uncaring powers above.

Freedom, the crocus reaching through the frost

to give hope for new life

that will quench the soul’s quest

the longing to really be

who and what we are meant to be,

the end of old sins and strife

the birth of new heavens and new earth.

Freedom, the thing we cannot name,

the deepest need bred in the bone,

freedom to seek, to do, to become

our own noblest, best person.

Freedom, the universal prize

to which we lift our eyes

which we will only know

when it suddenly appears

and declares, “I am here!”

It haunts the soul, a phantom rapture,

stirrings of an impassioned quest

for deepest needs denied.

The need to be seen,

the need to be known,

the need to be loved,

valued as worthy of being

as a child of God

without colour or gender,

one with another,

one in Him,

one forever.

Utopia

            In the early 16th Century, before the Reformation[1] came to England and King Henry VIII broke with the Roman Catholic Church, Sir Thomas More penned his timeless masterpiece, Utopia.  More was considered perhaps the greatest Renaissance[2] scholar in England at the time.  He also happened to be a close personal friend of the King, and had won a reputation on the European continent as a cultured man of reason and letters, including the recently rediscovered study of ancient and New Testament Greek.

            As Chancellor of England (the equivalent of Prime Minister before any such position existed), More had the King’s ear and was able to offer refuge to scholars such as Desiderius Erasmus, who had gotten into hot water with the ultra-conservative faction of the Spanish Catholic establishment.  At that time, Spain ruled Erasmus’s homeland in what is now Belgium.  The two great scholars became friends and stimulated each other to pursue their studies of the new knowledge.

More chose the title of his work, written in elegant Latin (the term utopia is Latin for ‘nowhere’), to protect himself from the possible repercussions of openly critiquing the social, political, economic, and religious establishment of the day.  It was brilliant and won a wide readership among the scholarly and literate classes.  Erasmus considered it better than anything he had written himself.  Even King Henry professed to admire it, perhaps not suspecting that the book criticized English society (and by implication him as the embodiment of Divine Right Absolutism) as much as any on the continent.

We need not concern ourselves here with the specifics of More’s attempt to describe an ideal society.  As the name indicates, such a place does not exist anywhere and, as he explained, will not exist until God rules the world.  More was backhandedly also denouncing the Church’s betrayal of its true mandate to bring the Kingdom of God into the world according to a completely different kind of rulership from that of the secular powers of ‘this present age’.  More’s strongly implied point was that truly just, good, and Christian rulers should be working towards the kind of society he was attempting to describe.

More’s gift to the future was the term “utopia” as a symbol of an ideal society, and the goal that human society should be directed towards.  No previous work had ever attempted to apply the idea of a perfect social order towards the reform of society in the present.  More derived his concept from his reading of the Bible.  In the Books of Isaiah (Old Testament) and Revelation (New Testament, and the last book of the Bible), there are descriptions of such societies couched in mostly allegorical and symbolic terms.  More’s thesis was what such conditions might look like if humanity’s rulers dedicated themselves to creating a society based on those conditions in the here and now.

More was not a naive idealist, as some might ignorantly assume today.  Neither was he a religious fanatic.  I emphasize this because in our 21st Century environment, the tendency is to write off scholarship smacking of Biblical and theological overtones as irrelevant, if not downright dangerous.  Religious fanaticism of any kind, or the mere hint of it, immediately disqualifies ideas and concepts put forward by serious thinkers having drawn upon such sources in the eyes of our own age’s academic and intellectual establishment.

More considered himself a true Christian, but not a ‘simple’ or uninformed one.  He had no use for superstitious flimflammery.  He was fully cognizant of the failings of the Church as an institution and sympathetic to demands for reform.  He was a man of his time, and as such he believed in God and the Trinity and the life, crucifixion, death and bodily resurrection of Jesus.  He believed that history bore out the truth of the Christian story.

Utopia, his great masterpiece, was written and published on the cusp of an enormous upheaval in the West’s social, political, economic, and religio-spiritual order.  Change and reform were in the air.  Challenge to the establishment on all these levels was brewing.  Modern Science was just beginning to emerge, and deep dissatisfaction with the failing model of ‘Christendom’ was rumbling beneath the surface all across Europe.

But we mistake the powerful desire for change among the leading intelligentsia of that time as a growing disillusionment with Christianity, as a rejection of the Christian Gospel and a shift towards veiled agnosticism, if not atheism.  When 21st Century revisionist historians and scholars look back on those times, we facilely commit the ‘mortal sin’ of anachronism, transferring our age’s prejudice and bias against faith and religion to the thinkers of that age.

No doubt, there were agnostics and a few atheists in the crowd, but the vast majority of the thinkers and scholars pushing a reform agenda were still theists at the very least, and most were still Trinitarians and believers in the Deity of Jesus Christ and his mission of bringing salvation to humanity and the broken, suffering creation as a whole.  Their disillusionment and cynicism was directed towards the frail human representatives of that mission who had fallen into the temptation of taking a share of power and the world’s enticements in the here and now.

Sir Thomas More eventually took a stand against his friend and master, King Henry VIII of England.  He paid for it with his life in 1537.  King Henry had decided to claim complete authority over the Catholic Church in England because the Pope would not grant him an annulment of his long-time marriage to Queen Catherine when she failed to give him a live male heir to the throne.  Henry’s solution to this impasse was to say that he, the anointed ‘temporal ruler’ of England, could rightfully also claim final spiritual authority over the Church within the bounds of his sovereign territory.

For More, the somewhat worldly but still firm believer in the Church’s heavenly mission to bring Christ’s light and rule into the world as it now is, this was too much.  It was too far from ‘Utopia’, the goal of moving the actual world closer towards the eventual rule of Christ on earth.  To have so brazen a power-grab confounded with a profound spiritual truth was ‘beyond the pale’ for More.  Henry, faced with this open challenge and denunciation of what he now stood for by his erstwhile best friend and closest advisor, could only respond by demonstrating his absolute authority.  He had him beheaded as a traitor.

More died as graciously and elegantly as he had lived, saying as he stood in front of the chopping block with a vast audience looking on, “I die the King’s good servant, but God’s first.”  Sir Thomas More was elevated to sainthood as a martyr by the Roman Catholic Church in 1934 on the 400th anniversary of King Henry’s apostasy and More’s imprisonment.

[1] The official date for the start of the Reformation is usually given as Oct. 31, 1517, when priest and Professor Martin Luther posted his challenge to the practice of indulgences on the main door of his parish church in Wittenberg, Germany.  The Reformation was a movement to bring radical reform to the Roman Catholic Church.  The Church rejected the demands of the would-be reformers and then excommunicated them.  This resulted in the beginning of the Protestant branch of Christianity and great strife in Europe over religion for the next 150 years or so.

[2] The Renaissance – the word means ‘rebirth’ in French – had begun in the late 1300s in Italy.  It was a movement to recover and study the Greek and Roman ancient philosophers and literature in order to develop new insights and bring balance into life.  The scholars felt a need to offset the sometimes oppressive control of the Roman Catholic Church over life and society.  The Italian poet and scholar Petrarch is credited with naming the movement.

Lincoln and Douglass

“With malice toward none; with charity for all; with firmness in the right, as God gives us to see the right, let us strive on to finish the work we are in; to bind up the nation’s wounds; to care for him who shall have borne the battle, and for his widow, and his orphan—to do all which may achieve and cherish a just, and a lasting peace, among ourselves, and with all nations.”

Abraham Lincoln, Second Inaugural Address, March 4, 1865

 

In 1838, Frederick Douglass escaped slavery under a cruel master and overseer in Maryland by jumping a train just outside Baltimore and making his way to Massachusetts.  He settled in New Bedford, close to Boston, the cradle of the Abolitionist Movement.  He worked hard to educate himself and became not only literate, but eloquent, both as an orator and a writer.

He became an icon of the Abolitionists, as well as the premier advocate for Black Rights, including the right to bear arms in the war.  He worked tirelessly to have Blacks become full-fledged US citizens with voting rights and freedom to do anything (legal) they chose and live freely anywhere in the country.

During the Civil War, his relationship with Abraham Lincoln was not warm, although the two met.  Lincoln found Douglass abrasive to deal with.  Douglass criticized Lincoln (as did many) for being ‘lukewarm’ on Abolition and not fully accepting Blacks as entitled to equal rights.  Lincoln saw that this had to happen eventually, but thought they needed to be educated into it and the country had to be prepared for it over time.

Perhaps there is some justice in Douglass’s critique of Lincoln.  Both were men of their time and products of their heritage.  Lincoln may not have been ‘modern’ in his views of the equality of the ‘races’, but he was vastly in advance of the great majority of his compatriots.  In his time, he was one of the most misunderstood, maligned, underestimated, and undervalued ‘greats’ of history ever.

As a young man of nineteen, Lincoln had already begun to abhor slavery and the oppression of ‘the African Race’ as an abomination.  Upon seeing his firt slave market in New Orleans, he had said, “If I ever get the opportunity, I will hit this thing hard.”  This was long before he had any notion of becoming President.  He was not yet even on the road to becoming a lawyer.

Lincoln refused to succumb to radicalism, at least to the kind of Abolitionist radicalism of William Lloyd Garrison.  He was, however, a moral and constitutional radical.  Yet, even though he abhorred the evils of the whole slavery institution and system, he equally abhorred the idea of a wholesale violent demolition of it.  His view was that solving one great evil by wreaking havoc, mayhem, and destruction as some sort of hand of Divine Retribution (as per John Brown) would merely compound evil upon evil.

Lincoln sought a firm, measured, gradual approach.  He learned as he went, and grew into the man people would later revere.  He was far from a simple, simplistic ‘yokel’ lawyer from the backcountry of the Mid-West, as so many tried to portray him – ‘the Original Gorilla’ or ‘the Buffoon’, as the press so often vilified him.  Even his closest collaborators often failed to see the real man and the subtleties of his mind and soul being worked upon by ‘the Deity’, as he sometimes called the God he increasingly turned to as his need increased.

Frederick Douglass was understandably more one-dimensional and not privy to Lincoln’s gradual ascent into full recognition of the equality among races.  Douglass’s calling and mandate were simple and always remained clear.  His goal was fixed, and he strove to advance towards it for the rest of his life.  He too felt a sort of ‘Divine calling’ to do the work he knew he had been given.  It is perhaps understandable that he could not recognize, until it was too late, that, in a different way, Lincoln also knew he had been chosen for a great work and must see it through to the end.

For Lincoln, the work and the goal evolved in his vision and understanding as he was transformed into the greatest President the US ever had.  His basic persona did not change, but his wisdom and understanding increased, and his insight into how to move in practical ways grew exponentially and rapidly as he found himself catapulted into and engulfed in a context no one before him had ever faced, and perhaps never will again.

The Civil Rights Movement in the US rightly gives Douglass a prominent place in its pantheon.  He did much with little, and greatly advanced the cause of racial justice.  He also had enduring and significant support from a strong base of well-intentioned, well-positioned, and financially prosperous white Americans.  He was the leader of a nascent movement at a time when circumstances were opening new doors.

Lincoln was often surrounded by those who disdained him as a person, mocked his ‘inferior’ abilities (as they considered them), and questioned his every move (including many of Douglass’s supporters).  He would have said, if the expression had been in use then, that all this ‘came with the territory’.

Lincoln was rarely angered by attackers, detractors, and opponents.   He preferred to laugh – both at himself and the absurdities he was the target of.  He became exasperated at times, and frequently discouraged, but he would remain philosophical about the whole business, and seemed able to look at the issues with a kind of fatalistic detachment.  Like Douglass, once he could see the goal, Lincoln’s eyes remained fixed on it.  He began to see his way through the maze, how to bring some good out of the Apocalypse his country had fallen into.

One of Lincoln’s strongest opponents was his main rival for the Republican nomination of 1860, William Seward.  A second major opponent was Salmon P. Chase, a conniver who thought to supplant Lincoln in 1864.  A third was Edwin Stanton, a powerful Democrat in the House of Representatives who sought to bring every decision on the early conduct of the war under close scrutiny in order to discredit Lincoln and his administration.  Lincoln’s gift as a political genius enabled him to incorporate each of these one-time bitter opponents into his Cabinet.  Lincoln could have ruined him because of his secretive conspiring but instead, he successfully manoeuvred him into accepting the post of Chief Justice of the Supreme Court.  He brought Stanton into the Cabinet to replace the corrupt Secretary of War, Simon Cameron, in 1863, thus giving him a chance to ‘put up or shut up’ about how to prosecute the War.

What was the eventual estimation of the President by his former arch-rivals, men who saw him almost daily and got to know him intimately?  I will paraphrase Seward’s response to a critic of Lincoln still protesting his bumbling and mishandling of things in 1862, with the war in full swing and the North seemingly in disarray.  The critic suggested that the country would be far better off if Stanton took over, if they could somehow manoeuvre Lincoln into resigning or being impeached.  Steward told this man, “I have since completely changed my mind about Mr. Lincoln and his ability.  None of us measure up to him, and he outweighs all of us put together.”  Mr. Seward never changed this opinion thereafter.

Stanton often found himself crossing swords with Lincoln over strategy and assignments of personnel and resources.  They could engage in bitter arguments, with most of the vitriol and bitterness on Mr. Stanton’s side.  Lincoln’s calm persistence, often attributed to plain stubbornness, frequently later proved the justice of his perceptions.  Stanton was eventually completely won over by Lincoln, although he continued to be headstrong.  When Lincoln lay dying after being shot in Ford’s Theatre on April 14, 1865, Stanton sat the whole night by his bedside mute with grief, for he had come to regard Lincoln as a true friend and a very great man.  When Lincoln finally expired, Stanton was heard to say with a tear-choked voice, “And now he belongs to the ages.”

Frederick Douglass also later recognized Abraham Lincoln, for all his ‘limitations’ on the race question, as a truly great and unique man.  It is amazing what time and perspective can do to help us see things more clearly.  He realized that if Mr. Lincoln had survived, the reintegration of the South and the racial integration of the Blacks would have gone much differently and with far less longstanding bitterness to pass on to future generations.

The survival of the United States was Lincoln’s true legacy, and his closest contemporaries, along with millions of his fellow citizens, attributed this uniquely to him, a man whom they concluded God Himself had chosen for the task.  Lincoln himself had an inkling of this, more than once voicing the premonition that when it all ended, he would be gone too, his appointed work finished.

Today, the US recognizes both Lincoln and Douglass, wary allies and occasional opponents, as unquestionably great men.

God in a Box

God in a Box

 “…God is absolutely the wholly other, who cannot be reduced at all to any religious or theological form whatever, who is always absolutely new and surprising, who does not cease to come in the “today” of the presence, who disturbs our ritual, morality, and piety.”

Jacques Ellul, The Politics of God and the Politics of Man, p. 47

I have a longstanding issue with God.  If only I could convince the Creator to act ‘right’!  If only he/she/it would just obey the laws of the universe (as we conceive them, like the ‘non-interference-by-God law’) and see things the common-sense (my) way of justice.  (That is, deal with all the twits I think deserve punishment and retribution, and leave me and mine alone.)  If only God would just stay within proper bounds, confining him/her/itself to the defined appropriate venues like churches, mosques, synagogues, or temples – unless I really need divine assistance, and when I need it.  Come to think of it, if only he/she/it would just tell all those others they’ve got it wrong and should all recognize the truth!

But this ‘God-thing’ has a nasty habit of not always answering prayer the way I think is best (when I bother to consult the Deity), or of showing up in my conscience at the most inconvenient moments.  I keep being reminded that I am not a mere animal with a little extra capacity to reason and control certain destructive behavioural tendencies.

I keep trying to put this Rebel back in His box.  Even atheists find him/her/it a bloody nuisance and impossible to ignore all the time!  Silly, less reasonable people keep insisting that there must be a Creator, and not just a universal, anonymous ‘First Mover’ or ‘First Cause’ as Thomas Aquinas put it 800 years ago (building on Aristotle’s formulations of 1500+ years previous to him).

Well, can’t the Deity just be the ‘Kick-Starter’ at the however distant beginning?  Couldn’t this ‘Creator’ just be some sort of impersonal Super-Ego (as Freud put it) or Universal Archetype (Jung) that we can now declare an useless, still inconveniently genetically ingrained evolutionary vestige like the appendix?  (Oops! that has turned out to be pretty important after all!)

Then those are those religious zealots who keep telling me they have it all figured out.  They haul out massive tomes of theology and doctrine that set it all down for me, systematically, logically.  God – all nicely defined and categorized.  We have drawn up nice Divine personality profile and quite a thick portfolio to show all his/her/its achievements and ongoing works and projects – if you ever want to become acquainted with (fill in your preferred pronoun, or personalized epithet if you have a favourite – for example, ‘Jehovah’).

Most of the above is tongue in cheek, of course (or at least some of it).  Forgive the ‘unchristian’ sarcasm.  (Did you know Jesus had a bit of a sarcastic streak?  Check Matthew 23.)  We humans cannot avoid trying to describe and categorize.  It allows us to do science, to ‘advance’ and ‘progress’ and ‘subdue and have dominion’ as the Book of Genesis puts it.  The problem for many of us is that, although we have been gifted (by our Creator, one might say) with this amazing ability, which sets us apart from the regular animal kingdom, we think the Originator who gave us this faculty should submit to it.

But the Divine One has to be above our understanding, or he/she/it/they, etc. or cannot be the true First Cause.  My categories don’t fit, can’t box ‘Him’ in.  It’s like trying to dress an octopus in a tuxedo.  It doesn’t matter how consistent I think my categories are; as the Lawmaker and Giver, operating within any boundaries I think exist, or should exist, the only applicable boundaries are such as ‘He’ chooses to impose on ‘Himself’.

That is what Jacques Ellul was getting at in the opening quote of this reflection.  It is not that there is no truth to be found.  It is just that I cannot be the final judge of what the boundaries are.  So it does no good for me to ‘kick against the goads’, as Jesus is said to have told Paul in the Book of Acts.  Our protests against God’s ‘disorderliness’, ‘His’ insistence on ‘messing us around’, really makes us ‘Ophelian’, as per Hamlet’s comment on his would-be beloved’s protestations of innocence, “Methinks the lady doth protest too much.”

Jeremiah said the same thing a little more ‘Biblically’ or ‘prophetically’ (paraphrasing liberally): “Does the pot have any right to say to the Potter, ‘Why did you make this way?’  Doesn’t the Potter have the right [and the power] to form the clay into whatever kind of vessel best suits his purpose?’”

We pots fight hard to be our own potters so that we can try to remake ourselves in some other image than the one the Designer had in mind.  We fight so hard we even blind ourselves to the Designer’s signature on every piece of handiwork.  We redesign (in our own wisdom) the box itself, with no outside access points, so that the Creator can no longer bother us inside (our minds, at least).  Therefore, when this “absolutely wholly other” acts “in the “today” of the presence”, we automatically conclude it cannot be so.  The paradigm, the ritual, is broken!  God forbid! (and we really mean, ‘God, forbid yourself to be God’).

God in the road

I met God in the road one day

but I failed to see him there.

He said and did what I forbid,

and looked weighed down with care.

His plans seemed wild, too like a child’s,

but when I walked away,

some deep truth struck my heart.

I turned back ‘round,

to find he’d gone,

like from that empty grave.

Time to Reflect

The pace of events and life in this age leaves little time to process, let alone reflect on what is happening.  We are bombarded, deluged, swamped by endless stimulation.

As resilient and versatile as humans are, as we see from the range of environments we have successfully adapted ourselves to live in, there is a limit.  Science now corroborates what the ancient sages have told us for millennia – we need to step back, step away, find solitude and quiet, even silence, in order to regain balance and ‘reset’ psychologically, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

As has been said, there is no such thing as complete objectivity, even in the ‘hard’ sciences.  No observer is ever totally unbiased.  No matter how true one’s observations may be, they are limited by the observer’s position in time and space, and other factors such as presuppositional bias drawn from a host of factors, many of which are unconsciously acquired from birth on.

How frequently does one need to stop and take stock?  This seems to depend on the degree of continual (over)stimulation to which we find ourselves subjected.  There are also personal factors involved – basic personality and character traits being among them.  For example, it appears that extroverts need to get away from the social maelstrom less often than introverts – but they tolerate the isolation of the wide open spaces of nature less successfully than introverts.

This illustration is merely to state the obvious.  This space is intended to be a sort of ‘getaway’ within the maelstrom.  A retreat for those who want to take a little time to think and process.

The subjects presented here are the choice of the author of the blogs.  They will hopefully offer those who read them some opportunity to say, ‘Wait a minute!  That’s worth thinking about a little more.’  And perhaps in turn the reader will take a few moments to do their own reflection – even to take a different perspective from and perhaps even correct and challenge the blogger’s.

If so, that is entirely welcome.