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It’s been a very long time since I have been here but I am back. Well, I’m trying to be back. It’s such a cliche to say that everything changes when you have a child, but it is most definitely true. Life is totally different but richer, brighter, more rewarding. My beautiful boy is now 20 months old and is now a walking, talking little whirlwind. Everyday with him is exciting and crazy and exhausting. We have lots of fun together and I am loving spending this time with him and watching him grow. I feel very lucky.

So life has been all about him for a while. Now I’m trying to make it a little bit more about me again as well.

I think the biggest surprise I have had since Zac was born is how difficult breast feeding can be. I knew that I was going to have to work at it, I just didn’t realize it would be this hard. We have had issues with supply and attachment and whilst things are getting better, we’re still not there yet. Every feed is an ordeal of breast time, bottle (mostly expressed breast milk but sometimes formula) and then pumping time. It’s exhausting! I really want to exclusively breast feed so it’s been quite disheartening having to give him formula to top him up. But he’s happy and healthy and that’s the main thing. I just hope we can get this all sorted before my darling husband goes back to work in a couple of weeks time because I’m certainly not going to be able to keep all this up on my own.

Well, this baby doesn’t seem to want to come out on his own so the doctor is inducing me tomorrow.  I’m really glad to have made it over 40 weeks though considering I’ve had a couple of issues in the last couple of months – namely high blood pressure and gestational diabetes.  I’m really excited and terrified at the same time.  I can’t wait to meet my little guy but I’m so anxious about what’s going to happen.  The wonder of the internet means it is really easy to freak yourself out by over-researching things.   And people just love to share their horror stories – especially when it comes to child birth!  Seriously ladies, why do we enjoy scaring each other?!  It’s crazy.

Anyway…I guess I’ll see you on the flip-side!  Eeek!

This week I will keep myself busy (and not wondering when this baby is going to make it’s grand entrance into the world) by doing these things:

• Paint my nails
• Iron a whole heap of my husband’s clothes
• Bake some muffins
• Finish hand sewing the binding on the baby pram quilt
• Watch some movies
• Buy a label maker
• Get my fringe trimmed
• Do some washing
• Clean the bathroom
• Read
• Learn how to curl my hair
• Walk

Baby clothes are washed and packed away, hospital bags are ready…when will baby be ready?

I’ve been carrying this baby for 38 weeks and now I am growing fatter hugely impatient to get this show on the road.  It’s kinda silly really.  Maybe it’s because I feel ready now.  Everything is done and waiting.  And as much as I am loving having time to relax I am getting rather bored of being home by myself every day.  I used to sit at my desk at work and dream of all the things that I could be doing if I were at home and now that I am I can’t think of a single thing worth doing.  I clean.  I watch movies.  I read.  I cook.  Blah blah blah.  I get bored.  So I wait…and drive myself insane wondering when this baby will choose to come into the world.  When he is ready.  Yes, I know that.  When he is ready!

Are you ready yet baby?

I’m finally on the homeward stretch and I cannot wait to meet my little man.  Having said that I am very much enjoying this quiet time now that work is done and Christmas is over.  I’m certainly nesting and have cleaned and organised the baby’s room almost completely.  My hospital bag is as packed as it can be.  I do a little housework, I have a rest on the couch…I do a little more housework, I have a nap…it’s a pretty good life.  I am well aware that things will not be this easy soon enough.

The cats seem to be enjoying having me at home.  They are spending most of the day curled up on the couch beside me.  Sometimes on top of me and right in my way.  It’s cute though.  They’ve got big changes ahead too.

Hopefully life continues on this peacefully for the next 4 weeks.  My blood pressure is starting to creep up so we’re keeping an eye on that.  My gestational diabetes is under control.  It is a relief to know that if things start to go wrong at this point then we can get him out early without too much trouble.  Hopefully we can keep him in there growing healthily and happily for at least another couple of weeks though.

Time now for some trashy daytime TV!

After a very lengthy blog absence I decided it was about time I got back into it again.  And you know what they say – a change is as good as a holiday!  I’ve moved from Blogger to WordPress so I can start again, in a sense.  I don’t know why this was so important to be.  Maybe because so much of my life is changing at the moment that it seemed right that I start afresh in a new space.

Anyway, I’m hoping people will find me here eventually.  For those that don’t know me  my name is Jodie and I’m currently 33 weeks pregnant with my first baby (a boy!).  I’m very excited about this next phase in my life and am hoping to share the joys and challenges of that journey here.

I’m also an avid crafter (perhaps that should be in the past tense.  This pregnancy seems to have drained my crafting mojo!) and love the helpful and friendly crafty blogging world.  Perhaps I’ll get sewing again once Christmas is over and my maternity leave begins.

So…welcome!

It’s lovely to meet you!

Nice to see you again!

Here’s hoping this blogging adventure is a happy and long one!